Introspection Time

The year 2020, appears to have started like a PUBG video game that you began poorly. The difference in real life is that, you cannot exit and start over again. What started as an innocuous viral flu in one of the largest city in Central China, has quickly spread to various countries across the globe, leading to, as one of the Whatsapp messages forwarded to me, aptly sums up, planet earth being closed for repairs. This pandemic has scared people enough. So much so that,  India, with its population of close to 1.3 Bn, responded to the PM's call for a "Janta Curfew" or a People's curfew, with its people staying mostly indoors for a day, on 22 March 2020. No mean task for this large country, with a diverse section of people with different cultures, values and who speak different languages. Notwithstanding, the fear of death was possibly big enough for the human species to stand together and become united. Yet again, our species, which always appears to be vulnerable to any kind of threat, huddles together, to fight this unseen enemy.

Few thoughts cross my mind. First, whilst the technological advances over the past two decades, whether it is the armed defense or medical sciences, has grown by leaps and bounds, we still are taken by surprise and fatally so, by the tiniest of living organisms. So , are we adequately invested in the right fields - Do we have, for instance, the ability to survive if all the natural water in the earth start drying up?  What alternatives do we have - Are there companies investing sufficiently in that? We know, Bill Gates has invested in technology that can make water out of human poop. But, is that investment enough and at a substantial pace? What if there is no water at all.  That seems to be a possibility sooner than later as water has been drying in some of the most well known cities in the last couple of years.  Have we invested sufficiently in medical sciences, even as micro organisms quickly adapt and change so as to become immune to our medicines.  I was surprised that, as a country, we are lacking in adequate institutes that can identify the virus and with adequate quarantine and medical facilities for this large population.  

Second, I realised how much freedom means to us. A  twelve hour lockdown makes us so restless and it requires police, in some part of the country to ensure that people follow it. Not that, we would have done things differently on a Sunday . I have not visited my friends or relatives for months, considering the fact that I endure pathetic traffic during my daily office commute and hence, I am usually in no mind to venture out on a weekend .  I always pined for a time for myself - to watch movies and read that I want. But the moment I am told to sit at home and do just that, these things are no longer as appealing as going out for my run or meeting some friends. So, the question is, if there is no immediate answer to the threat of this virus, how long can you keep people restricted to their homes. What could the repercussion be? Would the need for freedom  override the fear of death?

Third, the moment we are faced with threat, I realised, we all act as if we have now been enlightened. I get to read a plethora of messages on social media, advising the need to be more respectful to nature,  advising me to be cognisance of the need to be more clean and tidy and reminding me of the practices of hinduism.  Some of these appear to be ridiculous -  for e.g, messages that tell me how cow's urine helps body to fight the virus  or how the ringing of bells or clapping at a particular time, resonates and destroys the bad things that appear in our life. Is this a matter of faith  or superstition or downright stupidity. -  I dont know. But as Swami Vivekananda, says in one of his speeches, judge not, for every one follows their own path of salvation and there is no path that is wrong.   But it is funny that when we are told that we may die, we suddenly realise the importance of living right, however ludicrous that might appear to the others.

Lastly, most of us, barring a few, are just a statistic. Hundreds of dead people in another country does not instill fear in us, as much as the fear of death of a loved one or oneself. So governments tap into this fear to inculcate discipline. 

As I had no choice, but to read,  I was reading some of the speeches of Swami Vivekananda. Co-incidentally, the speech I was reading to , was referring to the evolution of life.  Was he right when he said that cycle of life is constant, that we evolve from the tiniest of atom, become an intelligent species and go back to the tiniest of atom. So what is life all about? Is it just a struggle to start from nothing and end to nothing? What is this fight and struggle that we go through, in between, meant to be?


But then, there are positive outcomes. There are heroes or heroines, who have put their lives on danger to save others. For once, people have appreciated the great and untiring work of the medical fraternity or their dedication. We have learnt to respect nature again. And we continue to be optimistic of the future.

Happiness

The steps of my stride, as I walk back home from the railway station, increases at a faster pace as I hear Pharell Williams singing the song ' Happy'. The lyrics and tune of the song, makes your feel incredibly light and inexplicably happier, when till then I was feeling quite indifferent and had been walking immersed in reviewing the incidents of the day.  I look up in the sky, watching the stars and moon in the sky as if I was without the roof over my house, strangely smelling the flowers in the trees along the road, which I would walked hundreds of times and ignored, and feel incredibly happy. This probably leads to a rush of adrenaline, which in turns makes me walk faster. 

So, what is it that makes one happier? The answers could be so broad  - it could be the small things in life-  watching the butterflies and birds fly around flowers, walking in the beach feeling the waves brush your feet, watching the mountain peak rise above the clouds, watching your new born baby smile - or it could be big things - the ones which makes us feel that we achieved success, the results of our school or college exams, the first job, the promotions or climbing the peak (literally ).

Yet, Dr Gregory House, of the House M D fame, may analyse this as a chemical reaction in the brain. I have been watching this serial with immense interest (or is it addiction?) and rate it as one of the best. The actors are fabulous and Hugh Laurie makes you believe that he is indeed one of the best diagnostician. I think, even if I meet him in person, I would half expect him to be sarcastic and rude, with his intense eyes staring back as if he can read your mind. This guy is immensely talented, a pianist and singer apart from his acting capability. 

We are diverting from the topic- what makes one happy. Clearly happiness is not a constant phenomenon. Our mood changes depending upon the circumstances. The reason why House came into the context was that he would have probably explained the reason to be happy due to some chemical reaction in the brain.  The episodes therefore, showed at various occasions, how people's behaviour can change because of abnormalities or tumours in their brain. Consequently, rectifying these can result in a change in behaviour and how a person feels. This does not, of course, mean that the principles or a character of the person can undergo a radical change, but it does explain why we all behave differently to the same set of circumstances. Because we are all wired differently to some extent.

Maybe the time is not far off, when the brain can be wired to make one happy. Alternately, one may have the capability to control the reaction in one's brain, leading one to believe that one is happy. Till such time,  we will just enjoy those moments of being happy - when one is home with loved ones or getting together with friends or just living the dream that we call Life. Afterall, happiness is also a recollection of all the moments that made us feel happy.

Michio Kaku and the Future of the Mind

Not long ago, I believed, that the brain is the seat of our ability to think, we feel with the heart and we are conscious because of our soul.There are three aspects, the mind, the body and the soul... so said the wise Teachers. I believed in this implicitly, till I watched the lecture videos of Michio Kaku and started reading about his articles. Michio Kaku is a Professor of Physics at the City University of New York and famous for being the co-founder of the string field theory (the first time I heard that was Sheldon in the Big Bang Theory mentions it) Boy! this man (I meant, Michio Kaku and not Sheldon) is amazing!. I have become one of his numerous fans. I remember, when I was a kid, enjoying watching the famous TV serial, 'Cosmos', presented by Carl Sagan. It was Sagan, who probably pioneered, during our times, the art of presenting science to common people in a simple manner, that one, with hardly a scientific bent of mind albeit curious, like myself, could understand and enjoy. Michio Kaku, goes one step ahead - he can not only explain it well, he can bring similes that you would relate to in day- to -day life. He gives examples of movies (when does he get time to watch these movies beats me) to get the concept through. His latest book ' The future of the mind'  is a best seller and just reading it, broke disappointingly, some of my long held beliefs. The mysteries of why one could have a split- Dr Jekyll and Hyde personality, or the fact that emotions reside in the brain and not the heart, the different functions of the brain, are some of those covered in the book. Who you are, could probably, is because of your frontal cortex is and not because of your soul. Not that my belief in the existence of Soul has evaporated, but my curiosity has definitely been aroused. If we had more people like him teaching science in schools, probably we would have more scientists being nurtured in our countries. Till such time, one has to satiate one's quest of knowledge with books and YouTube!.

QUEEN - THE MOVIE

Kangana Ranaut was not exactly my favourite actress. Oh! I don't have anything against her. For that matter, I confess, I have not seen any of earlier movies as well. Well, it is just that, when I watched some of the trailers of her earlier movies, somehow I got a perception that she is probably better off a model than an actress. Don't ask me why - I just got the feeling that she may not be able to express well as an actress. I decided to watch Queen after I heard excellent reviews of the movie from friends. I did not have any great expectations, but the plot of the movie, which I read in the papers, intrigued me. I was taken by surprise. It was a good movie but that is not what surprised me. I was quite taken back by Kangana's acting skills. It was amazing. I firmly believe now, that she is one to watch out for. The movie was also well shot. Simple without the typical melodrama and yet quite effective. Worth definitely a watch. I wouldn't mind watching a repeat.

Sachin Tendulkar, The God of Cricket - We will Miss you.


Enough and more has been written and said of The God of Cricket. The newspapers and TV channels carried numerous articles and commentaries on his performance, his life and his decision to retire. I do not claim to be an expert on cricket. I could not, but help, writing on Him one last time. After the jubilation of the Indian Cricket team, as Shami took down the last West Indian man, the team gave the walking guard of honour to the little Master. It was an emotional moment for all to see. The tears in His eyes, brought a lump on my throat.  I found it difficult to express anything for the next few minutes, for fear that my voice would quiver. I felt an immense feeling of sadness envelope me, as I realised, that we will not be able to watch the Great Master play the game any more. A man, who has inspired the whole team, nay, a man  who brought the whole nation to a standstill when he played. A man, who was an hero to us, Indians, for the last twenty four years. An extremely long tenure , for any person to remain a Hero, to withstand the vagaries of one's own performance, the fickleness of the fans and ability to steer clear of all controversies. This little man, who remained calm, composed and strong, who was a mentor to his team and who showed us what ethics and values are all about, can be described in only one  word - GOD. He showed us, that if one believed in oneself and is passionate about what he does, one can achieve the greatest of heights. His passion for cricket and his patriotism were what made people like me, -who were disappointed in the game at the height of the match fixing scandals - to continue watching the game, if only to watch this great man play. I wonder, if the same interest in the game would continue after his departure. 

What makes this Great man that he is? Is it his talent? Is  it his hardwork and passion? Is it his character, his humbleness, his ethics, his patriotism, his respect for all as demonstrated in his final departure speech?  The thought arose, as I watched this great man with awe  - what is it that is lacking in me, that I cannot even achieve a fraction of what he has achieved in the last twenty four years? How did this seemingly small and vulnerable man, face the fastest and most fearsome bowlers over the years with seemingly easy manner?  How did he come out day in and day out with the same passion in what he does - one could see that even on the last day, he played with the same amount of passion as he would probably played in the first day. One can try to analyse this - may be Malcolm Gladwell would cover him one day in one of his books. But suffice to mention, there cannot be yet another God of Cricket, as great as Him  for a long time to come. Hats off to you, Sir.  Legends do not depart - they remain, forever, etched in our mind, giving us hope and inspiring us. We hope to see you in greater roles in the years to come. May God bless you with long life and the best for the years to come. One cannot thank you for all that you have done for us, but for want of anything better to say - Thank you, Sachin.

Living Life Feynman Style

A friend of mine suggested this wonderful book, Surely You Must be Joking Mr Feynman. I thoroughly enjoyed reading it and would strongly recommend it anyone who enjoys reading. The book is about some of the experiences of Richard Feynman, the Noble prize winner for Physics in 1965, in the form of brief anecdotes. Those who are put off by Science and worried that it could be a drab diary of a scientist and his theory need not worry. I , myself, do not claim to be deeply interested in Science, apart from a curiosity for the basics of the subject, like any person. It is an amazing book of the experiences of one man in a life time, all of which need not be related to science, but to the simple art of living. Again, do not be concerned, this is not a book of philosophy either. It is a recount of simple experiences, written in a humorous manner. Richard Feynman is known for his contribution to Quantum theories. My perception is that he would have been a prodigy as a child. He had a passion for repairing radios, which inculcates in him the habit of going into the root of all problems and solving it. A fact, which is substantiated in all things that he does. Whether he learnt the Frigideira while participating in the carnival in Brazil, or as he learns to play the bongo or when he learns Japanese culture and language, he shows his total involvement and passion. He joins the Prinston Academy and guess what, the audience of his first presentation comprises of the most renowned scientists including Einstein. I enjoyed reading the book thoroughly, even as I realised, that this is what one should aspire to do. To live life fully, enjoying what you do, being curious, always wanting to learn something new  and being passionate in what you want to learn. That would be living in Feynman Style. Something I have resolved to do in 2013. 

Farewell

We end the year 2012 with sadness. Bidding farewell to Amanat, the young fighter who lost her life after being raped, but who has given us hope and inspiration. She represents the vast majority of women who are molested and abused in the country, which go unnoticed. Why did her story bring in such a strong reaction, one would never know. But the youth in Delhi and in other parts of country, bring within me a feeling of hope... Hope that they have a consciousness of knowing what is right and wrong irrespective of what a bunch of insensitive, arrogant and ineffective politicians say and do.... Hope that justice will prevail and the guys responsible will be dealt with capital punishment... Hope that such reactions will instill better behaviour and deter crime against women, children or even men in general... Hope that the power of common people will prevail ... Hope that the political system, police and judiciary will realise the power of people and act accordingly. I have always felt helpless and angry when similar instance happen before, but now I am hopeful that people like us do react angrily and can make our feelings felt... that we have not completely lost hope and are not helpless. I pray that the Youth of today, bring about a revolution, a change in our thinking, a change in our living in a positive way as only the Youth can bring... a feeling of freshness. I am disgusted with the vast majority of politicians who have appeared in the media and are clueless of what they are commenting. It shows how shallow they are in their thoughts and actions.  


I have seen the Youth take up cudgels when allegations of corruption had peaked. I dont know if the politicians have the sense to hear and acknowledge this voice, a voice which would reverberate and sound the death knell of their political career. And so my hope rises that we could see a revolution in the year ahead.

I felt sad that Sachin Tendulkar decided to call it quits in one day international. We will not be able to revel in those magnificent skills that he displayed. But I hope that he will continue to show his prowess and demonstrate to his detractors that he is still the indisputable God of Cricket, when he plays Test Cricket in the year ahead.

I feel hopeful that we will see more youngsters bring name and fame to our country as we won six medals in the London olympics. The competition is tough and in a large country as ours, we still have a far way to go to reach optimum performance, but it is a beginning as new heros/heroines in the world of sport rise in the horizon.

I hope and pray that the year ahead will bring in peace and prosperity to our country and to the world in general. I pray that we learn to love our fellow humans and nature and learn to co-exist with other living beings so that the world is a much better place to live and our children to get to enjoy all the beautiful things that God has to offer. Here is to Hope and Happiness! Wishes for a happy 2013.